I turned the big 3-1 the beginning of October. It was a weekend of great celebration with my family and dear friends. I'm a lucky girl.
Turning 31 was a lot better than turning 30, thank goodness! As my birthday was approaching this year I kept thinking back to my life at this time last year. I was still adjusting to life with three kids, Rachel wasn't yet two months old, and my mornings were chaos getting Marshall to school every day by 8:15. In the moment I felt overwhelmed, but in control and doing well. Looking back a year later, I realized how hard it was, and I feel like I was barely holding it together. Thankfully, one year later, I feel like I am in a much better place physically, spiritually, mentally, and emotionally. And honestly, it makes me nervous to think about having a fourth baby! But I digress...
Last year I made a 30 for 30 list. I got this idea from a dear friend. I wrote down 30 things I wanted to accomplish in my 30s. I pulled out this list a few times in the last year just to keep it fresh in my mind. Some are serious, some are fun, some will be easy, and some will be challenging. As I pulled out the list again tonight I was pleased at what I've accomplished in one short year.
I'm teaching dance again (still want to take a dance class though), I still run, I wore lots of skirts this summer, I am no longer scared to buy/use an avocado, I've managed to shed 17 pounds, I call my mom more, and I am still working on being more patient with myself and my kids (that is a lifelong lesson!). Its been a good year.
Besides ticking things off my list, my 30s have brought me a sense of self-satisfaction I don't recall ever feeling before. I'm comfortable with who I am and I'm really liking that feeling.
The other day a friend asked me if I would change my profession if I had a complete re-do on my life. I only had to think about it for a moment to conclude that I am exactly where I want to be doing what I have always wanted. That is a sure blessing, and honestly, one I think about almost daily. I've always wanted to be a wife and a mother, and here I am.
A few mornings ago I was folding laundry. Marshall and Bridget were both at school and Rachel was napping. As I carried the basket up the stairs I noted that both the washing machine and dishwasher were running. I felt so accomplished that here it was 10:00 in the morning and I had accomplished so much. The thought that immediately followed was that I couldn't believe I was excited about my washing machine and dishwasher running at the same time. In that moment, I realized that I am no longer a "young/new" mom. I am certainly not a seasoned mom, but here I was, my oldest two at school, a quiet house with a napping baby, and I was thrilled about clean clothes and clean dishes. It was a surreal moment. I was no longer "playing" house. I am living the life I vividly remember my mom living.
The last few weeks I have also been thinking about what I want my daughters to learn from me. One thing I want them to learn is that they should always take time to improve themselves and continue to develop as individuals while they are balancing all that is required of them: wife, mother, employee, etc., whatever path their lives take them. I want them to set goals, figure out how to reach those goals, and achieve them. I don't want them to get lost and have life pass them by because they are so absorbed in everything around them that they forget about themselves. I want them to have hobbies that they love, I want them to have things that the excel in, I want them to improve themselves individually year after year. I am going to keep ticking away at my 30 for 30 list. When that's done, I'll make one for my 40s and every decade after that. My life is rich, my life is full, and I am beyond thankful for all that is in it.